Productivity, business, achieving that dream… stretching my
limits, physically, mentally and emotionally. All for the aspirations that I have set in my life, that age where your
focus is to reach the greatest self or possibly at least the ultimate self one
can achieve at this stage. Draining,
exhausting, fulfilling and satisfying, happiness at its finest, loneliness at
its lowest, and yeah pleasures fleeting and pleasures coming forth… difficult
and easy, challenging but alas there’s victory. I would say I’ve done it all or at least
most of it… coming to the conclusion of
the targets aimed at this age..

In this busy life, I long for openness and time for other
things that I aspire for and yet to achieve. I may have said I’ve done it all, but what other means to live if you
don’t have any purpose to meet still? Wouldn’t it be boring to be doing same things over and over again? That constant pursuit of happiness is but normal
and sane, may it be career, a car, a house, a thing and let us go to the most
interesting topic… “Love.” (I’m right,
am I not?)

It may be surprising to find out that most of the heart’s
longing of people at singlehood (and people who’re suffering from a
relationship that sucks) is having that partnership, the relationship meant to
forever hold. I have actually met people
who have been pessimistic of ever achieving that anymore because of being tired
and impatient in waiting. Waiting for
the ideal and perfect person. It has
actually become difficult for people to find and just accept a person who gives
love to them as it seems it doesn’t fit right. We have become so intelligent and smart that we pass judgment and
conclusion without even emerging in the situation. But then again if you feel and think that
that is what’s good for you then you have made the right choice.

And so another year passed, clocks ticking, market value
dropping? Or even going up? Some of us
are just continuing the lives we had a year ago, and some of us are optimistic
and eager to build a new and better self. As for me I go for the latter. I’m setting new goals and I hope luck is still at my side to pull off my
longings. Priorities are set; I’m
starting my engine and heading off to that route of the vision of my new
self. Whenever or however I achieve it,
unknowing is but inevitable. But I have
high hopes that I will again feel victorious when the time comes that it is
realized.

So cutting the crap now, and let me go back to Love.. don’t
get me wrong I experience love everyday, when I choose to that is.. but yeah
Love relationship is my priority with high ranking.. to share my lovenest with,
make little Bads and **put future wife’s name here***… ready to risk my heart again… ready to feel
pain and ecstatic happiness.. ready for another compromise… ready for wild,
steaming and unrelenting mmm..mmm.monogamous lovemaking(tough one.)… ready to
sweep you off your feet, and ready for my heart to be captivated again… what
else? I’m just saying I’m so f*#$%^@ ready! At last? I hope…

Any takers?  not
desperate though! haha